day 4 part 2

i notice that i am not tired at the end of the day. my typical bedtime is usually 10 pm. i am wide awake and not the least bit tired. the past few nights i would go to bed anyway and just lay there not the least bit ready to fall asleep. i did not make it to yoga this morning as i had planned. after a raw chocolate and banana smoothie, i was bouncing off the wall. i used that energy to clean the house. i was too wired to do yoga. today was not what i would call challenging. it was actually a good day. i was inspired to re-organize the kitchen. i felt too guilty to just throw the stuff off. i felt even worse at the thought of given food away that i wouldn't eat. i put the items in a box. i decided to share it with a family who would enjoy the food or give it to the food bank. i have mixed feelings about how much of this i should "force" on my daughter. i know she is deserving of health benefits. i know she will get traditional cooked foods while she is with her dad. i also know that it will be challenging to cook for her while it is my desire to eat only raw foods. i have some what of a vision of what i can do for her. it would be advantageous to her to take it slow. one thing i know about myself is that cold turkey is the only way for me to be most committed. i may be putting more energy into this than necessary. i am concerned as it is a gift of love for me to prepare meals for my family that are delicious, nutritious, and enjoyable. I really do enjoy seeing my family enjoy my modern day miracles in the kitchen.. i am not drinking water...i am having to consciously remind myself to drink water

day 4

sunday day 4

what i've learned is that this challenge goes by more smoothly if i address one moment at a time. no stressing about the last meal or the next. if i choose to stop and be in awareness of the moment, it is from that place that i make the best decisions.

tried a few new recipes on yesterday: raw chocolate and banana smoothie, peaches and spinach green smoothie, cashew mock chicken salad. while i enjoyed the smoothies i realized i did not have the taste for the gourmet concoctions. the mock chicken salad was not so bad...i just wanted a salad...something simple

did you really think i would accept any challenge that did not include chocolate? raw chocolate has 30x more antioxidants than green tea! the smell is misleadingly aromatic. your mind thinks milk chocolate... not. eating raw chocolate (nibs) is sort of like crunching on chocolate flavored coffee beans (no sugar added). it's a taste that i imagined can be acquired or with some stevia/ agave could be the "real" thing.

there is this guy, david wolfe, calls himself the world authority on chocolate. says chocolate is the best food ever. says to eat more chocolate. co-wrote a book, naked chocolate, "where recipes allow you to find that perfect alchemical potion that causes all heaven to break loose." and he"s a cutie! i think he may be the "one"!

what seems to work best is to keep it simple. that's today's plan. keep it simple.

ps i did find a recipe for a chocolate cake. more to come on that.